Tuesday, October 28, 2003




~*Been Thinking Part two*~

Ghosties going home tomarrow, nothing i can say or do is going to change that...some things just have to be, and right now there are things back home that need to be tended to... i can understands that, i know what it's like to be on that side of the coin...no fun at all that much i am sure of...

he says he is coming back to the States, and i am certain he truly intends to do so...

i'm also just as certain that before he returns i will have let him down...

~*sighssssssssss*~

i can't help but have these lil fears inside of me no matter how much i try to push them away... in fact, i think the more that i try to push them away the stronger that they become...

Galahad once said i put 2+2 together and come up with some gawds aweful equation for which only i could truly sum up... if yesturday was any indication of that fact, then the numbers went some where off the board and beyond infinity...

i'm looking for negatives... i don't want to be looking for them...but i am...

must be that "protective lil shell" of mine...

i suppose if there was a set time frame in knowing when Ghostie would return...then maybe i could pass off some of my fears...

maybe...

sometimes what you don't know can hurt you...right now i'm more concerned that what i don't know will cause me to hurt him for my own fear of being hurt again in the end...

soz... i'm beginning to wonder if i should purchase some new clothespins for the stinkies i fear are about to come on...after all...patience is a virtue...and i'm sooooo not the virtuous types woman

~*sighsssssssssssssss*~

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