Tuesday, September 09, 2003




~*they're bacccccccck*~

i wishhhhh i could remember everything birdie had told me about "them"...

there used to be a time when i was close to certain people in the crib, a few of us have simply drifted apart, and then again there are a few i have chosen to distance myself from...not that they have done anything wrong, but due to circumstances being as they have been...after all, its kinda hard to heal when the wounds are forever being reopened...

at any rate, Birdie wasn't a part of last nights strange oddities, funny thing is i haven't seen or heard from him in months...and i have nevvvvvvver spoken to this person for whom i had conversed with last evening (eyes wide open here...something is definiately up...someone is definiately trying to pokes)

i minded my words very cautiously for almost an hour before my tourney...and i was intensely thankful to see "Sweetie" had decided to join us...it was a familiar face, it was a "comfortability" ...it was a hilarity... it was "safe"...and that says alot when safety comes in the measure of associating with lions and wolves...

oyyyyyy...

soz what had happened was that this girlie from the crib had paged me...at firsttttt i was willing to pay attention, thinking her a newbie to the group and wanting to be as helpful as i possibly could in making her to feel welcome...etc etc etc...

i don't spend as much time in the crib as i used to, i'm a bit out of the loop on "who's who" anymore these days, and truth is, i rarely approach or chatter with others in the crib since the departure of Sir Galahad...main reason being that whole issue of lack of trust...

i don't for a single moment believe that Galahad is no longer with us, if i did i would be a fool, but truth is, i don't care to acknowledge if he is there under the guise of another...and i certainly don't need his groupies prying into my life...soz i've withdrawn...ALOT...

i don't know much of this girlie...except to say the red flags came out...as soon as she mentioned "Birdie's" name i knewwww i was dancing with a fire, and the moment she started bickering her lil mouth off about a friend of Ghostie and mine... well thennnnnnnnn i went to deaf ears...

who isssss this peep anyways?

thank gawdsssss it was tourney time...i made hasty excuses that i was lousy at multi tasking and quickly went to greeting the incoming woogsters...one of whom had been "Sweetie"

...i breatheddddddddd...

"Sweetie" and i have this chemistry of sorts, i still haven't quite figured it out, and it's definiately not anything romantical or anything, but it feels "right"...when the two of us are "together" (as in "in sync") its like we can tackle the world, and when we're fussing at each other it almost like two worlds have colided...

~*giggles*~

yeppperz...thats about it...

He was his usual confident self last night and the bantering in the lobby was quite comical...in fact, one of the woogsters made point at the end of the tourney to say that she wasnt sure exactly what she had enjoyed more...playing in the tourney, or watching "Sweetie" and i carrying on in the lobby...

(alls i can say is thank gawdsssssss yahoo doesnt allow caps in the lobby...."Sweetie" was trying to come in under a nick veryyyyyyyyyyy similiar to mine... he failed miserably...he also failed to figure out how to make the space bar move to his liking so that he could fake off that i was making comments...er yeah, i stink at that one toooo....but i did better than he did!!!)

the one thing that i do know is that i had wished Ghostie had been there...not because "Sweetie" had made me to feel threatened...he didn't, in fact if anything, he made me to feel i could take on the world...which was a good thing considering that that girlie was still there...and sheeeeeeee made me feel very uneasy...

what wasssss the purpose of her pages anyways

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