Saturday, September 20, 2003




~*evening thoughts?*~

we talked, i cried...i denied it too... and if that earns me a spank point wellllllll...

it's hard to appear to be cheerful on the outside when the inside of you feels like chit, and it took that call in this morning to make things a lil better, and bring some sort of a smile (or giggle) back to my lil face...

i still can't believe i had cursed him...it wasn't that i wanted to actually curse himmmm so much is it was the fact i can't believe he knows meeeeeee so stinking well...soz i was really cursing myself... in spite of the fact i had said "dommed you"

He had said if he couldn't make 30 September then maybe a Chrissie vacation was in order...i said NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! he asked then if i would not pick him up at the airport should he come, again i said nooooo... to which he had said yes i would...DOMMMMMITS!

NO NO NO!

piss me again...i know i would do...

what reallllly made me ill was the thought of him telling me that perhaps i should cancel off cable these next few months soz i could make that move into the new place...and i love the new place...and too it would be big enough for us all...but my cable is my only connection to him short of a few phone calls spread sporadically throughout the week...

on that issue i simply havvvvvvvve to stomp my lil foot and say NOOOOOO WAY! if its meant to be it will be and if not, theres plenty more out there when the time is right...
for now, i can deal with this new lil inhabitants

which reminds me... running to and from the dump this morning i happened across a loverly lil yard sale... 4 large serving bowls with a matching fruit bowl and two matching serving platters...all in a wonderful purple hue with green ivy... cost all of $5.00 and now they are mine... life can be wonderful at times...i didn't pick up the two empty Pernod bottles...though i wasssss tempted too...would have made loverly lil holders for a few candles???

~*giggles*~

noooooooooo... but i did pick up a cute lil wine bottle with a purple band emblazed upon it, the cork is missing but i thought it would make a loverly lil bud vase...and i wasn't wrong on that one either

~*grinzzzzzzzzzz*~

ooooohhhhhh...and i'm not sure butttt...i'd swear there was a visitor in the crib today for me...not a word was passed between us...but thats only because i'm not the type to goes about introducing myself to strange breeds not in the league...but if its who i think it is then they know that...IFFFFFF they knew it was me that is...

i had written this person the other day when i was letting people know i was still around and missing them...the new person in the crib today had a name very similiar to one i had known well...the new person had also been idle 20 minutes when i arrived, and had stayed idle the whole time i was there...

of course, they never dissapeared either...soz i'm thinking niccccccccce lil lurker eh?

welps i think (and am pretty sure) its one and the same as someone i had once known... but i'm not talkin, not now... i miss them, yes, but it doesnt mean i need the melo drama that comes from having them in my life...i will say this though, it felt awfully dayumed good to see thatttttttt name in crib

speaking of names and people thought missing and not..."V" had asked me about "Galahad" today...it's been months now since anyone has heard word of him i suppose, and as i told "V", "Galahad" and i had a bit of discord for which he chose to leave permanently...not on account of any other woogies soz he had put it...yeah rightttttt

i'm pretty sure he has been aroud at leasssst a few times, and "V" is pretty sure he has been around even more than a few times...naming off one of the woogies for whom she had thought certainly was in fact "Galahad"...and funny thing is i have often thought that person was "Galahad" myself...in spite of the fact that Ghostie knowssssss who thatttt other person is...or at least claimsssss to be

i think i might need to pay a lil bit closer attention to that one...after all... Monster haddddddddd said "Galahad" would be back...think it was something sort of "he promised me" and knowing what i knew about "V" having had issue...i would hate to think i had told her a tale when i defended that "other" woogies name...

chitttt...deja vue there...

~*sighsssss remembering Dante and charo*~

anyhows, Ghostie knows me toooo dommed well... and in spite of my bad self i've gone and done just as he wished and went to crib...and i giggled...

thats sooooooo not fair...it's my day to pout dommmmmmits!





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