Saturday, September 27, 2003




~*Evening thoughts*~

i suppose when someone you love leaves you, that it's true what they say, "auto-pilot" just sort of kicks into gear and you keep going through all of the motions...

Ghosties words had hit me quite hard, and i truly hadn't been expecting it...

i mean to say that we all had known the time must surely be close at hand, but if someone were to have said to me yesturday that we would lose her today i would have never believed it...

she was resting more, she was eating more, there was color back in her system...we had known mom would be leaving us...but still it was a bit of a shock...

i didn't know what to say...i couldn't find the words...i just cried

and then i came home, found one of Ghosties closest friends, and relayed the news...and again i relayed news to yet another dear friend...and so on, and so on...

i had hurried through making sure that friends very close to our hearts knew of the circumstances because i had known one of the TD's would be posting a message to the forum...

i was thankful that it would be her that was doing as much...

all i wanted at that moment was to get to my parents home and await the phone call for which i knew would eventually be coming...

the phone call from Ghostie that would let me know he was home safe, that he was with family, and that all would take care...

i promised him that i would continue to locate our friends, that i would be in the tournies this evening, and thanks to "Sweetie" i'm even running one myself this evening at 8pm...

i'm not so sure that it will take my mind off things back home... but it will draw me 1 step closer to my 150th tourney, which i think i shall ask Ghostie if i might do in her honor... and for tonight, there are several candles lit in her memory

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